No return

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Mom was so paranoid that she was going to be returned back to her old hometown, her mind went into full protection mode and sent her spiraling to full destruction.

She was completely calm on the return trip to Brian. I think she knew we were heading a different direction in the same way three weeks earlier when heading to my house, she recognized where we were and went into full panic mode and tried to jump out of my truck

It amazes me how strong the mind is, how much it protects us, even rewrites itself. It's no wonder there's still so much we don't understand about it. We tried to continuously reassure her, but after so many years of damage, there's no going back. She continued to digress over the next 3 years, it was dementia that took over and March 6, 2023, she succumbed.

I'm going to take a strong stance here, but I believe my dad murdered my mom. Not in the conventional sense, but in the constant torment that eventually caused her breakdown. Who knows how long she could have lived if he wasn't in her life or if he would have just acted like a decent person. Our whole family was robbed of her.

My hope is someday, we will be able to hold mental abusers to the same standard as physical abusers. As more research is being done on the effects of any kind of abuse, we may be able to get to that point. For now, we can band together and help each other.

First, change your thoughts process. Don't consider yourself a victim because you are a survivor. Even if you are still in a bad situation, you have already survived your past.

We have the choice to learn from our situation and be better people or we can carry on the misery that we suffered through. We can stop the abusive cycle. Start by identifying the behaviors that you disliked happening to you. Research the different varieties of abuse. We'll talk about them in future blogs to help you.

We're not required to fall under the stereotype that states how we're supposed to turn out because of our experiences. We get to choose how we want to turn out and how we treat other people. We get to choose to take those negative experiences and turn them into our inspiration for our strength. Our experiences have taught us unique skills that sets us apart. We can harness those skills and experiences and become amazing people.

It's not going to be an easy journey, but you can do it. You owe it to yourself and the people around you to be a good person. You're worth it!